I'm sorry that it's been two posts since a response from me. Between graduating, visiting home, and giving my friend Laura the time with me that she deserves, I haven't been too close to my computer too often.
I can relate to the feeling of sort of...not being allowed to enjoy happiness newly found. For the first couple months with J, I thought the whole world was golden, turning just to make us happy. It certainly seemed that way, and everyone around us seemed to be just as happy with our relationship as we were. Once I started hearing complaints, however, our joy felt tainted...
It hurts to feel as though others don't see something that makes you happy as the wonderful thing that you know it is. It's hard to be more discreet with a relationship that just seems to fit and makes you want to announce to everyone how happy you are, and it's definitely difficult to move forward when former relationships (or non-relationships, as in my case), insist on stepping on the back of your shoes.
I've decided that, in time, my friends will come to appreciate this contentment I've found with another after so many unfortunate others and realize that, if maybe they don't see me as much or see me as much by myself, it's worth it because of how happy I am. This is kind of a selfish line of thinking, on my part, but I like to believe that, if something came along that gave one of my close friends great joy at the cost of spending some time with me, I'd be able to welcome that thing (whether it's a person or job or hobby) because of its value to my friend.
My point in all of that talking about me is to come back to you and say that once the kids are used to the idea of you and your doctor and once your employer sees that the relationship is not something casual or sinful but something that brings you joy, they'll calm down and you can openly enjoy the happiness you deserve. As for the marine...that's a wrench that will undoubtedly be difficult to handle, but time is an amazing healer...
Looking forward to the beach, we can both take comfort in the fact that we have a great family that seems to be only happy if we've found something or someone that makes us happy. My parents think J is great, and you said your parents and brother like your doctor. I can't help but feel that they'll integrate well with the rest of the family, and that there you can relax and just enjoy sharing the doctor with everyone, away from rumors and suggested discretion.
Much love and compassion...
Sincerely,
Kate
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